Monday, September 3, 2012

Castella Natalia at CHC KL EMERGE NEON 2012





Ke Negri Jiran bukan untuk shopping! Tapi untuk sesuatu yang moreeeee than shopping :')

Gini ceritanya, saya ngefans beurat sama salah satu Pastor di CHC, KL. Namanya Ps. Kevin Loo. Beberapa kali beliau datang ke Indonesia dan sharing di my home, ECC. Tapi gak pernah kepikiran bisa ngobrol ato sekedar tegur sapa, karena setiap kali ngeliat dia, speechless, hasek lebay beut saking ngefansnya!!!

Tapi rencana Tuhan emang selalu spektakuler. Mendengar jeritan hati sang anak mungkin yah! HAHAHA. Bukan cuma bisa fellowship sm Ps. Kevin, bahkan bisa nginep di rumahnya loh... Diundang untuk testimoni di CHC, memberkati gerejanya dengan kisah hidup saya. Cuma nyampein pengalaman saya bersama Yesus 10 tahun lalu, yang bener-bener mengubahkan saya sampai detik ini, dan saya masih mengalami Tuhan setiap hari!

Saya cuma inget 6 tahun lalu, waktu masa saya putus pacar, uhhh galaunya adubileh. Memang di saat hancur cuma rasa percaya sama Tuhan yang mampu bikin seseorang bangkit lagi! Cuma percaya oneday saya luar biasa, itu karena keputusan yang saya buat hari ini benar. Dan di saat itu cuma ngebayangin saya berdiri di depan ribuan orang dari berbagai negara dan kasih tau kalo Tuhan sanggup mengubahkan dan mengangkat saya di setiap titik terendah dalam hidup saya. Jadi kaya di flashback aja sih mimpi 6 tahun lalu itu... Belum lagi kalo inget masa-masa orang gak pernah notice keberadaan saya, boro-boro dilirik orang, berasa ada juga kagak, sedih amat nasibnya lebih parah dari mahluk halus. Hahaha. Disaat semua orang gak perhitungkan saya, justru Tuhan melihat saya :')

Okey, dan inilah perjalanan saya selama di KL,malaysia. 3 hari 2 malem, bersama Ci Siany, Ko david, Carolina Suwandi (BFF,hahaha)

ini view dari apart Ps.

AAAaaa, ternyata doll bikinan saya ada di kamar anaknya! kata Ps. Kevin, anaknya demen banget sama doll ini, pagi siang malem slalu nempel sm Ethan :')

ini dia Ps.Kevin yang nyempetin fellowship bareng tamu-tamu dari Indonesia.
di display nih!! 

sempet dong beli VINCI, freak!
4 pasang!
shoeholic ya
latihan dulu neh
make up!
AAaaa, ternyata Ps. Kevin suka ngelukis juga!! Ini dikasih lukisannya!! *hampir pingsan. judul lukisannya, LOVE.
sebelum naek panggung nih, prayer is my superduper power!!
TARAAAAA... nongol juga!

Speech pake bahasa inggrissss!!! 



Testimony by Castella Natalia

(Voice over – offstage)
Hi church, I’m Castella from Indonesia. Since childhood, I was an anti-social person (pix 1). Fear was always a part of me, something I could not escape from.

(Voice over - offstage)
My father rejected me (pix 2,3 in one slide) because he wanted a son instead of a daughter. So I lived with my grandmother and grew up thinking that nobody wanted me in this world.

(Live on stage – Castella walks up on stage and continues sharing from pulpit)
If you look at me today, you probably won’t believe how terrible my life was before. I believed I was ugly (pix 4), had no self-confidence and did not have any friends.

For 15 years, I created my own world with only me in it. I cared about nothing - no one else - just me. When I was in elementary school (pix 5), I was bullied all the time because I was small and skinny. Because of this, I never went out to play with anyone. I felt comfortable only when I was in my room, playing alone with my dolls and monster images that I drew myself.

I was an expressionless person (pix 6, 7 in one slide). The only way I expressed myself was through my scary paintings. I would often change the colour of my bedroom walls - black, dark brown, dark green - all the colours of gloom.

There was one time I celebrated my birthday alone in my room, blew the candle alone, and planned to buy a coffin to replace my bed. That was my world. I had nobody.

When I went outside the house or to school, I would always look down while I walked and let my long hair cover my face. I wished my hair could wrap around my body because I was very ashamed. I did not dare to look at people in the eye. I was too afraid. And so people around me would ignore me, and I could often hear them making fun of me.

There were a few times that I tried joining drawing competitions, but I never won. Somehow, I was convinced that I was just an ugly, stupid person.

When my family started to worry about my strange behaviour, they took me to see a psychologist. But even the psychologist could not do anything to help me.

Until one day I met Ps. Siany and Ps. David (live feed – mobile cam to pan Ps Siany and Ps David). They introduced me to God and led me to grow in a good community. They taught me about everything in life - from spiritual things to etiquette – like making eye contact when talking to people, how to greet people, dressing my hair so it doesn’t block my view, how to talk, how to take care of myself, and lots more.

They were very patient with me. Even though people kept mocking me, they stayed beside me and continued to help me become a better person. Over time, I began to communicate with the people in the community better (pix 8, 9 in one slide), to talk and express myself normally.

The moment I encountered God my Creator, that was when I realized - and believed - that I am precious; that I am loved and that I am created for a greater purpose.

God restored every aspect of my life including my relationship with my family (pix 10). Now my family is always encouraging me in my work and ministry.

Today, I am an artist, designer, illustrator, teacher, and model (pix 11, 12 in one slide). God has transformed me by bringing out all the talent that He has placed within me.

I realized God has restored my life so that I can help restore the lives of other people. I am now a Zone Supervisor in church looking after 4 cell-groups comprising about 60 people.

I know God is not done with me yet. He still has many great plans for my future. But there is one thing I am certain – all that I am today, all that I will become tomorrow - I will give all for Him and serve Him the rest of my life.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” - 2 Cor. 5:17



ini orang-orang saya yang sangat-sangat membantu kamiiii
ini dia, ko david, ci siany (daddy and mommy) YinHar (LO) paling ujung KEROL (BFF, skaligus tukang foto)

Every time I fall down to the lowest, I believe someday that point will be the reason for Him to lift me up to the highest. - Castella Natalia







1 comment:

Ewiq Savitri said...

good job kak! dr dianggep 'gak ada' sekarang jadi seperti sekarang. walaupun nangkep arti dari speechnya setengah2 tapi sy salut sm kakak :)